Who I am
Despite having an Electronics Engineering Degree, I really got nowhere in Life. Most of my Jobs does not really give my Degree a run for the money. What it did was to tell everyone that I went Overseas and got a piece of paper. The Degree did expose me to the World of Electronics, and that’s really it. The rest, I learned from the Internet and YouTube. A few years later, it kinda became obsolete too.
I can say that electronics was and is my Hobby since I practically spend every available time pulling my hairs out trying to learn them. But to be able to say they changed and improved my Life would be an understatement. And so, with me spending time perfecting prototypes and stuff, there are some small little trinkets and system which I would like to share with.
When I get Gifts…
Gifting can sometimes be an issue for me. I have a problem when someone gives me a Present because in my naivety, I believed they chose to take some time off in their Life to choose or make the Present. So, it would mean me not using it and kept in a safe place much to the chagrin of everyone around me.
When I give Gifts
Just like Adam Savage mentioned, when giving, we are at our most vulnerable. When things goes south, I would feel so embarrassed because I did not ‘think properly’ nor ‘know’ that person really well. That soul crushing feeling does make me illogically doubt my Judgement and also as a person to them. All those insecurity and wanting to be validated comes flooding back.
Yeah, I could subtly ask that person what they really wished for, or you know, test them out but then, the real question would be, if I want to give willingly, this is not the way to go about it. In the end, we have all grown and to be honest let’s not waste anyone’s time. If I want to give, I’ll give. What happens next, would not be a problem to be since that ‘thing’ does not belong to me anymore. But man, the feels would linger for years though.
